Jiwa Kosong x Bermakna Tenang

Assalamualaikum...

Lama gak blog ni xde entry br.. rindu betul... since title tajuk ni JIWA KOSONG... thats mean mmg jiwa ak tgh kosong.. zero.. tp bkn zero error.. nk gelak pon mcm x gelak.. nk nangis pon mcm x nangis.. sbenarnye pe ak rase?? ak pon xtaw.. kdg2 rase diri ni mcm smpah pon ad...useless tp ak manusia.. bkn smpah.. smpah xde akal n fikiran.. but i do have..

eeeee.. pe la feeling ni... eyh.. jap2.. feeling ke? ntah.. yg penting mcm x taw pape.. mcm baby kot.. (bkn ckp ak comel or bajet sweet hbs.. tp ak nye otak skung mcm baby.. '0'@zero)... Herm... then ak xtaw la nk balik umh ke x this week.. ak rndu family.. tp ak mls nk g bkt jalil tu.. jauh betul.. n mls nk naik lrt... knapa x stdy kat mlaka je.. sng nk balik umh.. lg 1.. ak try xnk boros.. ad sumthng yg sdg ak try miliki tnpe gne duit mak n ayh.. bole ke?? InsyaALLAH...

Ada sahabat penah pesan.. klu jiwa kosong tu maksudnye mslah hati n kna bnyk kn berzikir.. ingat Allah.. betul jugak ckp die... coz Allah sentiasa ad di sisi hamba yg igt pada-Nya... my parent pon pnh ckp.. hdp ni kna sentiasa bersyukur n igt Allah.. sbb Allah akn tolong ble kte susah.. kdg2 ak menyesal dgn pe ak wat.. tp ak taw x baik menyesali sesuatu yg pnh jd.. (hish pe ak ni.. mcm x betul je)

kdg2 ble duduk dlm kuliah.. tbe2 ak senyum.. tp ak xtaw plak ak tgh senyum smpai ad kwn tegur.. n kdg2 ak jd serius time org wat lawak even lawak die mmg high class nye.. n kdg2 ak rase sy hipokrit ble terpaksa gelak utk org lain.. pe la bnda ni ea.. mcm bengong pon ad...

herm.. kdg2 bosan dgn rutin ak.. n try chnage it to make it more enjoyable.. but sum1 will get hurt for wat im doing.. to clarify it make me feel horrible.. argh!!! bengang dgn diri sendiri... nak kata bangang pon ad.. tp xkn la kn.. haish... along ckp kna trus trg.. tp ak blom wat lg.. xtaw ble.. nant la.. ble rse da jht thp dewa br ak wat..

tenang?? herm.. mse ak skola n matrik dulu slalu je tng cume ble jmpe sorg mamat kat matrik ni jd x tng dpn die.. ak jd nk marah+bengang... (ni musuh tradisi ni)...waktu lain ak tenang le jugak.. klu org dolu2 ckp.. ble cekegu ajr tu sng nk masuk la... tp since duk U ni.. otak pon jd lampi... hati jd xtenang... jiwa jd kosong.. n sumtimes meluat dgn laki.. (tp ak bkn les)...

ahha.. mcm da lepaskn 50% of my prob dis week.. ok la kot.. yg 50% lg tu... tulis dlm diari jela.. sbb quite private n confidential...  so.. btol ckp seseorg tu.. x sume bnda kte ley share dgn umum.. let half of it become private.. n let me, myself n i keep it...

note: to anyone yg kna marah dgn ak diz week sory... unstable hormon i thought.. n the most important thing got to many trashes to be sttle down without hurting everyone... spe2 yg bace entry ni... jgn bengang k.. ak mmg jiwa 0... haha.. k.. chow chin chow bla bla bla...

see on next entry.. COMING SOON...